Distance

Goodbyes make me tear and see you later's are open broken promises. I can't bare to see myself leave such a wonderful place that I have made my second home. However, I know that I have met wonderful people along the way. I have become to see what life really means, have come to realize that everything is a fight.

As I take this ride home along, I realized what home really means. Isn't not where you station yourself or where you have the most clothes located in. But it's where the heart lays. God has shown me that I CAN BE A STRONG YOUNG LADY as well as I am a FIGHTER! I have grown so much in the time span of three years in FL. I have experienced many things along the way, that has shown me to be independent.

I humbly return home to mom and dad to apologize for my wrongs as well as making them right. I also know that my anger is something that hasn't changed but has been controlled. You see before I use to swing first then ask questions now I do neither. Now I just shutdown and ask to be alone. If you can't respect my wishes then things get a little heck. 

However knowing my family and how they think they know me this would be a battlefield. I am going to go with an open mind as well as an open soul since I am different as well as maturing every minute of the day, I will miss my second mother dearly, she is the foundation to who I am now. She has seen me when I was at my lowest, instead of walking away she extended her hand to help. Even though she had her troubles over piling on her plate, she still said I am here if you ever need me.

She heard my tears, my soul crying for mercy and my broken heart. She was my saviour little by little as the Lord Himself was working through her. I have always been the one to find ways to justify my life of why is this happening to me? Why me? What did I do? However, living with mom for the couple of months I did, I learned that somethings are better undiscovered. Somethings are better left alone due to the mere fact of if you pray about it and leave it in God's hands. He will work it out, just leave it alone and God has your back.

With that being said I leave you with this: No matter where you go, how far you are, home is where your heart lays. I am heading to my primary home but Fl will always be my secondary home. I love everyone that I have become friends and family too. You guys will always be in my heart!