March 24, 2010 at 4:22am, a beautiful angel was born. A 22 hour labor that felt like an eternity ended up with a C-section surgery and a panic attack because I never had a surgery that was so serious. I was worried and calling for my mother that John (Aleigha's father) had to call my mother. I spoke to her and she came to the rescue. I wanted her to come in the operation room with me but she told me that she wasn't going to do that since it was a special moment for the both of us. After being in the operation room and trying to calm down, having John holding my hand and caressing my face. The first sound of relief was when I heard her crying.
When John first held her everything was so right and so perfect. She was my angel, I had promised myself that I would protect her in any way I could as well as I would never let anything or anyone harm her. She is the apple of my eye and my everything. We decided to name her after both grandmothers, his mother's name is Leigha and my mother's middle name is Felicia. I always wanted my first daughter to be names Aaliyah, I didn't know how I wanted to spell it but knowing that his mother was Leigha. We decided to just add the A to it and keep my mother's middle name as hers.
Hence how Aleigha Felicia Lopes was decided. From the moment we left the hospital to the minute I moved to Fl, she is my sunshine, my everything and my world. I left her for the dumbest reason in the world and I regret it every minute and every moment I stay in FL. I should have never left her side she needs me more than anything and for the dumbest reason in the world I left. However, I am going back to her and I will provide her with the love, shelter, and comfort that I know I can give to her.
Fl has been a lesson learned experience for me. However, it's time to go back home to be with my sunshine and my family. I should have never left and that mistake will always be remembered and those three years will be in my eyes wasted as well as time apart as well as seeing her grow up. I have time to make up even though those years have been gone. I leave this with a simple I'm coming home, tell the world that I'm coming home.
There's NOTHING like a mother's love, nothing. Don't consider the three years as time wasted, consider it as a lesson learned. I know it sounds cliché to say, "everything happens for a reason;" but, it is very true. Take the best out of each situation; it'll help you to grow.
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Since I've known you; you've been someone very special to me. Your daughter has been very close to my heart as well. I'm glad to know that no matter what, your love for her will grow even more and she will be very happy knowing you are back home for good. I'm happy to have meet both of you and when you go home don't be a stranger,. please keep in touch.
ReplyDeleteAs a mother I can only agree with everything you felt that day! And as I always tell my brother, my husband and every man I know, you will never understand that feeling unless you were a woman. Giving birth is a magical experience, a miracle! I'm fortunate and proud to be a mother!
ReplyDeleteHi Clarivel
ReplyDeleteI can relate to how precious it must have been for you, I love six just that way. I would like to make this comment. Don't beat yourself up to the point you suffer for it. there not one person on the planet whom is pleased with every decision they have ever made.